I'm taking a little break
If you're reading this, it means that you and I are in the middle of a collab project (or several!). I decided to just write one message to all my collaborators because, let's face it, I'm exhausted. I've been burning the candle at both ends for a little over a year now and I'm in desperate need of a break. I bit off a little more than I can chew. I just counted and I'm currently in the middle of 42 track collaborations with 26 other producers - no joke. On top of working on my own 15-track album and a handful of producing projects for clients. The bottom line: it's really starting to take its toll on my mental, physical, and financial health. I have been pulling at least two all-nighters each week in order to try to catch up. But, it seems that no matter how hard I try, I keep falling farther and farther behind.
The constant stress of trying to stick to deadlines has left me overwhelmed, anxious, and depressed. So, I wanted to let you know that I will be taking some time off to get my mental and physical health back on track. I really apologize - it is never my intention to just bail or let anyone down. I realized I have been overcommitting and under delivering for quite awhile. And, it's simply because I've been trying to please too many people for too long. So, I'm sorry. I'm not sure how long exactly I will be taking a break for. But, I'll get in touch when I'm back at it and ready to tackle our project(s).
I appreciate your understanding and I really am looking forward to working with you in the future. I just can't keep going at the rate that I have been pushing myself. I've even allowed my clients' projects to get pushed aside which has also taken its toll on my bank account (yikes!). Also, I'm just nearly about ready to check myself into the mental hospital haha.
During my break, I will be disconnecting from social media, email, and messaging apps. That being said, if you desperately need to get ahold of me, you can reach my management at: firstname.lastname@example.org and they'll pass along your message. I just really need some space and time to breathe and get my head on straight again. I honestly can't remember the last time I took even one day off.
If you don't feel like waiting around for me, I would totally understand if you took the instrumental(s) you created and use them for another project. Just please let me know if you end up giving the instrumental away to another vocalist so I don't continue to work on it when I get my groove and energy back. Otherwise, I'll be in touch when I'm ready to pick up our collab again.
Again, I appreciate your understanding. I consider myself truly blessed that so many people (including you) want to work with me and utilize my music skills. I keep having to remind myself that all of this overwhelm is because I'm awesome haha. I remember when I first started making music, nobody wanted to work with me. So, I've been trying to pat myself on the back as much as possible to help distract from the fact I feel like a complete failure who just lets everyone down.
I've been making music for 15 years now, but I didn't start collaborating with other producers until October of 2019. This last year has really opened my eyes to the joys of making music with other people. It has definitely been a wild ride and opened so many doors (a few too many doors haha). But, I am so grateful that you wanted to work with me in the first place. It really means the world to me. I've just said yes to a bit too much and I need to prune it back for a little while and get some fucking rest haha. I hope to be back at the grind with zest and vigor soon!