Dive Deeper
the story behind the song
When I fall in love, I tend to fall hard and fast. But, when I met this one particular human, emotions seemed to escalate more rapidly than usual. He was so beautiful to me, both inside and out. And within just a few days of knowing each other, my heart got swept away. But, it's crazy to tell someone you love them after only knowing them for a week, right?! So instead, I wrote "soon".
In that first week of knowing each other, we connected on so many levels - our lives as artists, our weird obsessions, and all the obscure music we thought only we listened to. We bonded over how we see the world and how the world sees us, realizing we shared the fear of being judged by our worst actions, rather than our best intentions. We quickly learned we were both excessive empaths, chronically sacrificing, and longing to be seen.
Within those first few days of knowing him, he filled a role I didn't even know I needed filled. He reflected me. He gave me the gifts I was used to giving - he listened, he cared, and he made an effort to deeply understand me. And I mirrored him right back. We talked about our feelings for each other within just a few days - neither of us wanting to use the L-word for fear of scaring the other away. But, I knew I had to tell him somehow, so I wrote him these lyrics over an instrumental produced by my very talented collaborator, Siqu.
I was terrified to share this track with him, but when I did, I was met with an equally terrified "I love you too". After all, only psychos say those words that early on! I have a theory as to why we developed this mutual love so quickly. Alongside all the fun of playing "getting to know you" games, connecting over shared interests, and discovering some really unique similarities, we were allowing the other to love themselves. And, if you ask me, it's never too soon for that.
lyrics
By Arthur Kody
I’d never seen color like that - it was 5am. I swear we’d met before, but I can’t say when. And even though we never got a chance to speak, you let me see you, and I let you see me. Cuz there’s beauty in the bravery of stripping it away - every empty mask we wear to say that we’re okay. Will you lend me all your scars if I lend you mine? Cuz we are both creators breathing borrowed time.
And it scares me that you feel it too - the way I feel when I’m with you. Well, it’s too early for the truth. I wanna say it - damn, I do. But, for now, let’s say “I’ll love you soon”.
Our first night all alone - it was 5am. We stripped down to our bones and, not alone, we were home again. And, even though we never got a chance to sleep, you let me be you, and I let you be me. Cuz a giver’s gotta learn how to be given to. And, how the hell is it already after noon? We’re too busy spilling words like they were art, and picking up the pieces that we need to heal our hearts.
And it scares me that you feel it too - the way I feel when I’m with you. Well, it’s too early for the truth. I wanna say it - damn, I do. But, for now, let’s say “I’ll love you soon”.
My fear is crushing me. I think we might be rushing things. But when I feel you touching me, time doesn’t seem so real. It’s been a week or so, and I’m insane - you’ve seen it, though. But, I can’t say this thing I know - can’t tell you how I feel.
And it scares me that you feel it too - the way I feel when I’m with you. Well, it’s too early for the truth. I wanna say it - damn, I do. But, for now, let’s say “I’ll love you soon”.
Favorite Lyric
"Will you lend me all your scars if I lend you mine?"
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