Just What I Asked For
Lokah + Arthur Kody
Dive Deeper
the story behind the song
I collaborated with the super talented Progressive House producer, Lokah, on this track to tell the story of falling for someone who was already “taken”. A little background: I’ve been in a polyamorous relationship with my husband for quite some time now. In case you’re not familiar with the term, it means we both agreed to “open” our relationship in order to allow for deeper connection with other amazing humans. However, one of the amazing humans I fell for happened to be in a relationship that was much less open than ours.
While still respecting the boundaries of his relationship, he and I shared our own special connection. We bonded over art, working as creatives, our love of good tunes, and quad-shot caramel Frappuccino’s. But, sometimes it was difficult when the boundaries prevented us from getting as close as we’d like to. I’d been looking for someone like him for awhile and, when he showed up, he was just what I asked for. So, it was frustrating not being able to connect on the level I wanted. In the end, whether friends or lovers, he still holds a very special place in my heart.
lyrics
by Arthur Kody
You tell me I'm kind when I lie in your sheets with no sleep. I'm not just passing the time. 'Cause you're right where I wanna be. You align in my eyes and I see that you need someone to tell you it's fine to be right where you wanna be.
But, we've never been right here before - loving in a smokescreen, knowing that we want more. Why isn't this easy? 'Cause you're just what I asked for. And, I've never felt like this before. I feel like I'm 16, sneaking out the back door. This feels like a daydream, 'cause you're just what I asked for.
You've been inside of my mind. And you know who I am when I'm not trying to hide. You know me and see what I can't believe. And I hear the lies that you hold with your life. And it's strange that they're the same ones as mine. But sometimes, you need someone else to see.
But, we've never been right here before - loving in a smokescreen, knowing that we need more. Why can't this be easy? 'Cause you're just what I asked for. And, I've never felt like this before. I feel like I'm 16, sneaking out the back door. This feels like a daydream, 'cause you're just what I asked for.